Wednesday, October 31, 2007

two-faced


earlier today, a friend and his colleagues working in a service-related company were harassed by a aggrieved customer. shouting orders here and there. shouting expletives. demanding unreasonable service. then my friend introduced himself. you see they are both members of the same charismatic community. suddenly, a change of expression from this guy. smiles for everybody. bright as sunshine.



two-faced *&^@#...!



Monday, October 29, 2007

GMA and Erap, chummy once more.

just as PGMA generated praise and admiration during her term as the first president to convict a former head of state of plunder... definitely a momentous event in Philippine history, she is now again making generating mixed responses from various camps regarding Erap's clemency. what can i say, except that it reeks with political innuendos, more of pacifying rather that peace keeping. PGMA is just seeking to win over the masses and political rivals from Erap's camp to suit her needs and those of her guys. arghh! the dirty world of politic. one day you are the worst enemies (if it gives you a positive SWS rating, why not?), the next day, you're chummy once more(if it gives you thumbs up from the masses and other strong political figures, why not?).

makes me think back of the times i joined rallys in makati, sneaking out of the office just to shout with the "educated rallyists" Stepdown Erap! time well spent...not! i, as long as thousands others, put our lives on the line to support the ouster of Erap, hoped for a conviction, prayed for a change in this battered nation of ours... beaming momentarily for the "winning moments" of Erap's ouster, Sandigan rulings, house arrest.... only to have the rug pulled under our feet by an EXECUTIVE CLEMENCY. what a waste! what favors are they expecting in return i wonder... yes there was that agreement the Erap will no longer run for office, (sure, save yourself first as usual) but i am sure there are other agreements kept off the press, agreements that will surely affect political kinships in the senate and congress, among the secretaries, heck it will probably even go down to the baranggay level, where they say the jueteng collections really come from... it all boils down to MONEY and POLITICAL FAVORS.

they say: it's just to keep peace in our country, let our wounds from the past heal so that we can move forward... ok, whatever. as if pardoning one former president will miraculously rid the government of festering lowlives who thinks the national treasury is their petty cash fund, wipe clean the national debt from the IMF, give our public education system a makeover and make the Philippines Asia's newest Tiger... ok, whatever. since i can't do anything about it, i will just charge that wasted part of my life to experience. note to self, never trust a person who grins enthusiastically, but who's smile never reaches her eyes, as they say, the eyes are the windows of the soul... i just try and look at the bright side... at least at those rallys, i got to see some artistas, kris aquino being one of them!

(ok, what bright side?!?!)

Sunday, October 28, 2007

precious web time


time was when i had ALL the time in the world. when i could read all the books that i wanted to read, watch tv, DAYDREAM... now i can't do all these things anymore... UNINTERRUPTED. there would always be something to drag me back to reality.


i love logging on... although i don't really have any particular site i visit. i blog. i love it.


i read entertainment stuff. i sooo looove the entertainment world. the movies. the gossip. i just wish the state of local entertainment is upgraged too. heck sure the US showbiz don't have a single moral bone (same as here) at least they do their controversies with pizazz!

back to my precious time. i would love to have more time for myself. nearly inpossible though now in my case.

at least i get to sneak in some blogging time.
i wish people would stop bugging me when i am with my laptop. they know i am BUSY... isn't it obvious?!
time... time... time... a most precious commodity. what can i say except....
i want more!... more!... more!!!!

Saturday, October 27, 2007

the truth shall set me free

i coming clean. i have another blog somewhere in cyberspace. 2 more actually. one i have somehow built up some readership... but with a very specific audience. i've made friends and i've shared milestones. the other one is more personal. it is more about my conversations with my God. then why the heck am i starting a new one? i guess there is side of me i need to share and release... a side of me i can't write about in my other blogs. the bitchy side. the weird side. the crazy side. we all have one i guess. i know, i know. it is some sort of escape. not accepting that everything is a part of a whole. heck, it's my life and it's my process so beat it! lol!
what i write in my other blogs, those are MY thoughts. what i write here, they are MY thoughts. so what if i can't post them all in one blog. so what if i compartmentalize my life. not the healthiest thing to do, but then again... MY LIFE right?
so what if i have a side of me that i don't want friends and family to know about...yet. the important thing is i am not keeping things bottled in my chest until i become too strung up that i'd get a gun and start a killing rampage at the nearest grade school. i am keeping it real. for myself at least... for the meantime.
ok, enough explanations. there it is. i am bitchy sometimes... no apologies.

new look

i decided to change the look of my blog from inspiring and relaxing green to dark and twisted black. maybe i can go deeper into my soul and find something to write about... that is if my life is not so darn BORING! so i decided to get the cutting edge look... well as they say black is the new... well, black. ooooh, so daring... bleech!
ok, so what now? i am thinking i need to be more free in writing in this blog. i need to free the maaany personalities that i have. maybe someone in there can write something worth reading someday...

a new strategy

ok, so the entertainment plan didn't pan out... but then again, almost most of my endeavors end up this way...it doesn't mean i'd throw in the towel and slither away... i will just put it in a drawer in my crazy head for safekeeping, someday when i am goin' crazy out of boredom, i'll take a peek in that drawer and we'll see what i can do...
ok, that said, what do i intend to do now? write. write. write.
about what you ask? anything and everything.
ok, so what about that glorietta blast? hmmm... i was away busy with something when that happened. thankfully i was faaaar away from "ground zero"... so i didn't really get what actually happened except when i passed TV sets along the way... there was a blast... there were casualties... they were pointing the blame to a friggin' LPG... nope, wait a minute, it was definitely a bomb... nope, stop the presses... it was actually SHIT.
too bad, people got hurt with what? shit. it was one hell of a freak accident. death by feces.
although, i am still not entirely convinced that menthane gas ? and diesel brought about such destruction, a little voice in my head keeps on saying "it's just damage control... it is REALLY a bomb!" ... but then who listens to that little voice in my head anyway, just one of my maaany personalities trying desperately for some exposure time...