butch dalisay in the flesh

i was wandering about in powerbooks trinoma last saturday when i saw they were having a presentation of sorts. i then heard a man with a deep, solid, confident voice explaining something. ( i too caught up with the velvety voice to actually listen) hehehe. i kept on wondering who is he? is he a political figure? a media practitioner? i was not really sure, but having his talk inside powerbooks, he definitely has something to do with the written word. so i kept on hovering about. after a few more minutes, the talk was over, and the moderator introduced the mysterious speaker as the distinguished mr. butch dalisay.

i was in awe. i have one of his books. i read his article in the newspaper. he is a writer advocating the art of writing. my kind of guy!

too bad, that i made a sad realization. i think i am too shy to ever be a writer. in my mind i kept on kicking myself... why didn't i approach him? take his picture? talk to him?

how can i ever get into writing when i am too shy? how will i get stories? interview sources? argh! so frustrating! shyness is an occupational hazard i have to get rid of.

too bad. i hope i meet him again. probably by that time i would've read his book.

depression era

yes, the depression continues. christmas day is getting nearer and yet i see no happiness in sight. i put up our tree this weekend, thinking that a bit christmas spirit might creep in my dark dark heart, and yet still nothing.

i am so darn sad. is this a physical thing? maybe i have an imbalance of sorts. what will i tell the doctor should i have myself checked up? doc, i am sad all the time. what 's wrong with me? am i going to be ready with whatever his answers will be? what's wrong with me... the list might be toooo long.

is there a cure for unhappiness? mid life crisis?

please tell me...soon. coz i feel like i'm actually losing it. i feel like i am nearing the end of my sanity. being so unhappy can't be healthy right?

please. let me snap out of this...

GMA and Erap, chummy once more.

just as PGMA generated praise and admiration during her term as the first president to convict a former head of state of plunder... definitely a momentous event in Philippine history, she is now again making generating mixed responses from various camps regarding Erap's clemency. what can i say, except that it reeks with political innuendos, more of pacifying rather that peace keeping. PGMA is just seeking to win over the masses and political rivals from Erap's camp to suit her needs and those of her guys. arghh! the dirty world of politic. one day you are the worst enemies (if it gives you a positive SWS rating, why not?), the next day, you're chummy once more(if it gives you thumbs up from the masses and other strong political figures, why not?).

makes me think back of the times i joined rallys in makati, sneaking out of the office just to shout with the "educated rallyists" Stepdown Erap! time well spent...not! i, as long as thousands others, put our lives on the line to support the ouster of Erap, hoped for a conviction, prayed for a change in this battered nation of ours... beaming momentarily for the "winning moments" of Erap's ouster, Sandigan rulings, house arrest.... only to have the rug pulled under our feet by an EXECUTIVE CLEMENCY. what a waste! what favors are they expecting in return i wonder... yes there was that agreement the Erap will no longer run for office, (sure, save yourself first as usual) but i am sure there are other agreements kept off the press, agreements that will surely affect political kinships in the senate and congress, among the secretaries, heck it will probably even go down to the baranggay level, where they say the jueteng collections really come from... it all boils down to MONEY and POLITICAL FAVORS.

they say: it's just to keep peace in our country, let our wounds from the past heal so that we can move forward... ok, whatever. as if pardoning one former president will miraculously rid the government of festering lowlives who thinks the national treasury is their petty cash fund, wipe clean the national debt from the IMF, give our public education system a makeover and make the Philippines Asia's newest Tiger... ok, whatever. since i can't do anything about it, i will just charge that wasted part of my life to experience. note to self, never trust a person who grins enthusiastically, but who's smile never reaches her eyes, as they say, the eyes are the windows of the soul... i just try and look at the bright side... at least at those rallys, i got to see some artistas, kris aquino being one of them!

(ok, what bright side?!?!)