Why is being proper important?

i've asked myself this question so many times., in so many different forms. why do we have to act a certain way when i really feel differently? isn't this similar to being unreal to yourself. not expressing what you really feel? what ever happened to truth and honesty?

well i guess, this keeps the order in society. what if everyone who ever wanted to "kill" someone in anger actually does? there will probably no more population problem in the world. acting properly keeps things in check. keeps us civilized and apart from other forms of animals... who basically act on instinct.

words from the wise

snagged without permission but with utmost respect and admiration from butch dalisay's blog. it was an outline of a recent speech he gave to graduates. so full of insights! i just love the guy!

1. You can blame poverty only so much for holding you back. Instead of using it as an excuse to do nothing, use it as a reason to do all you can. Don’t waste time grumbling, or feeling embittered.

2. Those of us who are poor simply have to do more to catch up. The only thing we have is our intelligence and resourcefulness, and no one can help us best but ourselves. Find ways of compensating for your shortcomings (in my case, this was through reading and, later, writing).

3. Education is the great equalizer. Don’t waste this chance when you get it. Have fun learning, and learn to have fun, but stay focused. Your richer classmates can afford to bum around, but you can’t.

4. A good school is a great help, but a good mind is even more important. The best school can’t help a lazy mind.

5. Learn how to write and to speak well—it really helps. And read, read, read. Read things beyond your immediate interest and competence. Nothing you read is ever wasted.

6. Be engaged in the issues of your time. Some things are more important than personal prosperity and success. When you succeed, give back. UP’s “iskolar ng bayan” and Ateneo’s “a man for others” suggest the same thing: we study to serve the people, not just ourselves nor our families.

i just love it. thanks sir butch!

the kids of today

it amazes me sometimes, the kids of today. i get to read their thoughts in their blogs and it just blows me away, how deep their thoughts are, how good at writing they are, how in touch they are with themselves... and yet here i am, a mom in my 30's, and yet still so clueless about my life.

scary.

love at first sight

do you believe in love at first sight? i don't. i don't believe you can look at somone from across the room and know that the universe wants you two to be together. there is just no logic. lust in first sight, sure. love? i don't think so. you see an attractive person, you size him up, you look at his eyes, his skin, his rippling muscles... and you let out a sigh... gawd! i'm in love! YEAH RIGHT!

it takes time to know a person... let alone develop friendship with him. that is what i strongly believe in... start as friends. get to know each other. know him when he is happy, get to know him when he's not. study him when he's not aware that you're looking. find out how he is when he is drunk, sober, stressed, hungry, horny, angry, bored... GET TO KNOW HIM. this will take time, and that is what's good about friendship. no pressure. no time frame. you grow, together. then when the time is right, when the stars are aligned. when the fates are smiling down at you... you slowly find yourself swirling... falling in love. believe me, it is the sweetest feeling. more precious than that abrupt feeling you feel in your gut when you see someone goodlooking. that's not love. that's a knee jerk reaction from your body looking to procreate with the best of the species to improve your gene pool. that is genetics. that is biology. that is definitely not love.

the truth shall set me free

i coming clean. i have another blog somewhere in cyberspace. 2 more actually. one i have somehow built up some readership... but with a very specific audience. i've made friends and i've shared milestones. the other one is more personal. it is more about my conversations with my God. then why the heck am i starting a new one? i guess there is side of me i need to share and release... a side of me i can't write about in my other blogs. the bitchy side. the weird side. the crazy side. we all have one i guess. i know, i know. it is some sort of escape. not accepting that everything is a part of a whole. heck, it's my life and it's my process so beat it! lol!

what i write in my other blogs, those are MY thoughts. what i write here, they are MY thoughts. so what if i can't post them all in one blog. so what if i compartmentalize my life. not the healthiest thing to do, but then again... MY LIFE right?

so what if i have a side of me that i don't want friends and family to know about...yet. the important thing is i am not keeping things bottled in my chest until i become too strung up that i'd get a gun and start a killing rampage at the nearest grade school. i am keeping it real. for myself at least... for the meantime.

ok, enough explanations. there it is. i am bitchy sometimes... no apologies.