BA in Journalism

i am thinking of taking my "career" a notch higher, i'm thinking of taking up further studies in our community college. BA in Journalism. hmmm. sounds pretty major.

our course this plan of mine is not without complications. i am again being disturbed by the logical side of me, why in the world would i take up journalism??? do i intend to have career in this industry? (maybe) do i think i can make it? (sure!) why, i mean really, why? (for personal fulfillment, yep, no monetary rewards, just the contentment of taking up something i am interested in. --- enter another problem: if i just want to further study, why not take up a course that will complement my degree? maybe something in computers. i've spent 10 years of my life grudgingly crunching numbers anyway... journalism is a field for the young and strong willed... not for the middle aged wife and mother suffering from a mid life crisis.

now what?

i am more depressed that when i began writing this blog entry.

i really want to be a better writer.

i want to feel alive again.

what to do? what to do?