my freedom lost

i need to do some serious venting today, for starting tomorrow, i relinquish my freedom.

i was assigned to a new position, added work, no added perks. what's worse is that i don't know anything about the new job assigned to me and the ones whom i expect to teach have already resigned or transferred to another division. meaning i am left with nothing. no other choice but to receive the blame. and did i mention that by being assigned to that job i bypassed a number of hopefuls... meaning i am now the center of their ire, whether they admit it to my face or not.

i find myself in this difficult predicament.

they hate me, i hate my boss, i hate my job, i hate myself for not acting acting fast enough and being true to myself, and admitting to my boss that i cannot accept such a responsibility. i don't care much for my career, as i've written so many times before, i hate my job. it's just that i have no other choice. i don't know how to do anything else. i barely know what to do with my present job anyway. i am lost.

i need a new career path. i need to get rich quick, so i can resign from work and still provide for my little girl's needs. i need a miracle.